When I don’t have anyone special to ask for hanging out, I never go outside if there’s no necessary to, even in Satnite. I always have many books or e-Books to read when I’m bored in my room, I always have Diandra, my sweetie laptop, to have music to listen to or only typing some writings into it. I’m enjoying my time for those.
It’s maybe weird for some of my friends, how I’m very comfort to my schedule to writing, studying, or just reading books (hey, attention for it, I don’t like to have my time with people whom isn’t interested me). I lived in Denpasar for my early years, my friends loved to hang out to any cafe in Kuta and haha-hihi and dancing there on the stage than just only read textbooks at their own home when Saturday night came, even though at tomorrow morning we had a math test. It’s also happened in Bandung, my friends there loved to go to Ciwalk to have Karaoke time with friends and haha-hihi. And in Jakarta, my friends made a big wave by their number going to movie to watch a very new film there and there they have haha-hihi time.
I can’t do that. I don’t know why, but I’m not enjoying time Karaoke-ing and laughing haha-hihi, walking down the streets in Kuta and laughing haha-hihi, or shopping and laughing haha-hihi. I ever enjoyed that situations in Cafe, any beaches, or in Mal, and I only enjoy my time to do that with my special person, only for sitting down on the sands of the beach, going to restaurant and having heard a jazz, classical, ballad, any other soft music and doing applause to them who playing instruments and singing. Silently.
I don’t know. I’m a very extrovert person, but sometimes I’m also being as an introvert person, silent, no more words for saying of. I just don’t know why we have to go outside with someone we don’t like, why we have to laugh haha-hihi when we’re with them and hiding our feelings (maybe that time we’re sad, had problems which need to be heard), why we must smile when we hurt, why we must love somebody we don’t, why we must trying to be same with someone close with us or we love though we don’t enjoy to do that.
Someone asked me why don’t go anywhere yesterday satnite, I have no answers, I just silent and smiling. Smile told everything.
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nice post... i really want to post something in english
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